Island of Fire – Kabanata 18

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Kabanata 18
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Hindi ko alam kung bakit parang wala akong natutunan. I rejected the engagement years ago to prove to everyone that I am not doing it for money but here I am doing it again. Kidnapping him just to save our asset. Wanting him to even be engaged with me just so our dying company can regain its former glory.

Maybe it is a different circumstance. Maybe because right now, I am on my mother’s shoes. I carry the burden she was carrying before.

Or maybe, because after everything, I know that he’s the only one person who I can trust. That I think running to him everytime I have a problem like this is okay. That it’s okay to be vulnerable around him. Okay to be weak.

Sa loob ng dalawang linggo kong pananatili sa Pilipinas, ang madatnan na magulo ang kompanya at ang makitang nakakulong ang aking ama, I have forgotten the honor my childhood has taught me. I have forgotten how honor can sometimes mean humility. It is not always found in pride. That pride is sometimes a useless virtue. And that honor, as a guide, means lowering your pride and standing still even when everything is falling apart.

There is no honor in reaching out to Radleigh, however right it feels. There is no honor in convincing him to marry me when he is probably in love with someone else. To save my pride, I have murdered my honor.

“Okay?” his husky voice almost made me feel dizzy.

Kinagat ko ang aking labi at tumigil sa paggalaw at pagpiglas. Why do I fit so perfectly on his lap when I am not supposed to be there? Even when I have destroyed his image in my mind for a thousand of times just to justify that the decision I made was perfect.

“I… w-want to go back to Manila,” I tried not to sound hysterical even when my mind is as broken as my feelings.

His breathing was the only thing I heard. Siguro ay hindi siya papayag. Siguro ay iniisip niyang kikidnappin ko ulit siya o may iba pa akong plano. Truth is, I have exhausted all my plans to save the company. He’s my last resort. I murdered my honor to save the company because I think it’s the only thing I can save.

I couldn’t save my Mom when she died. I couldn’t save my father when he started his obsession with gambling. Ang kompanya ang gusto kong isalba ngayon. Kahit na ano man ang kapalit. But now, I’ve realized that saving the company would only mean sinking myself.

“Rad, please…” My voice sounded so soft that I couldn’t almost hear it.

Hinawakan ko ang kanyang braso. The veins in it looked so strained.

“Daddy is in trouble. The company is sinking. Nobody is doing all the work for the employees.”

“Ethan can take care of it,” he whispered.

“Come on,” mas marahan pa ang boses ko. Nasa gitna na ng paghagulhol at pagmamakaawa. “I won’t kidnap you again. I don’t have a plan B. I won’t bother you anymore. I promise. I won’t see you again. I promise.”

Parang pinipiga ang puso ko habang sinasabi ko iyon. Nangingilid ang luha ko. Ayaw ko mang mailahad sa kanya ang lahat ng aking nararamdaman, sinikap ko paring hanapin ang kanyang mga mata. I twisted myself just so i could find his face but he pushed my cheek with his nose. He rested his nose on my neck, and his forehead on my cheek. Pinigilan niyang makita ko siya.

“You think I’d let that happen?”

Lito kong pinroseso ang sinabi niya.

“You… let it happen… years…” I couldn’t say it properly.

Humigpit ang hawak niya sa akin. Umangat ang kanyang ulo at ngayon, siya naman ang naghahanap sa aking mga mata. I looked sideways just so our eyes wouldn’t meet.

“What did you say…” humina bawat salita ang kanyang boses.

Hindi ko alam kung anong karugtong doon. O kung may naintindihan ba siya sa usapan naming pareho naming ‘di matuloy.

For a long time, we stayed that way. I didn’t move. The only thing that’s on my mind is me being on top of him. And he seems pretty relaxed hanggang sa nagpakawala siya ng isang buntong-hininga.

With the back of his hand, he caressed my neck slowly. Marahan akong napapikit. I slightly craned my neck just so he could have more access to it. His carresses came softer making me almost shiver.

“You’re sweating a lot. Are you tired?” he whispered.

Ngumuso ako at dumilat. Ngayon ko lang napagtanto na iyon pala ang hinahaplos.

“A bit,” pag-amin ko.

I felt his head nod on my shoulder. Huminga ulit siya ng malalim. He ruffled my hair with his fingers. I suddenly feel uncomfortable. Ngayon ko lang napansing pinagpapawisan nga ako at kanina pa siya dikit nang dikit sa akin.

“Uhm… I’m gonna shower now.”

I pushed his thighs just so I could stand. Dumausdos ang kamay niya galing sa aking braso patungo sa aking hita. Marahang hagod iyon dahil sa pagtayo ko.

Uminit ang pisngi ko at hinarap siya. Kunot man ang noo ay nakikitaan ko parin siya ng lambot. I don’t understand. His hand clinged to my fingers even when he should’ve let me go.

“I’ll wait for you downstairs, then.”

I nodded. Ilang sandali pa ang lumipas bago tuluyang dumiretso sa isang kabinet at kumuha ng tuwalya. Nanatili siyang naroon hanggang sa pumasok na ako sa banyo para makaligo.

When I’m behind the closed door of the bathroom, ‘tsaka ko lang naramdaman ang labis labis na pag kabog ng aking puso. Damn it! It’s been quite a while…

Naligo ako at nagbihis. Lumabas ako at wala na siya sa aking kwarto. Pagkatapos ay bumaba na ako para mananghalian.

Pababa ng hagdanan ay nakita kong maayos na ang sala. Everything’s in place and clean. Si Kanor lang ang tao roon, nagbabantay sa may pintuan.

“Ma’am, sabi ni Sir Radleigh, sa may veranda daw kayo mananghalian ngayon,” si Kanor.

I nodded and went immediately to the first floor’s veranda. I stopped midstep when I saw the scenery. I have always admired how this mansion was designed. Pero ngayon ko lang lubusang naexperience ang pagkakadisenyo nito. Marahil masyado akong abala sa maraming bagay para pansinin ang kahit ganito kaliit na kagandahan.

The white curtains on the sides of the french sliding door is blown by the noon wind. Hindi gaanong maaraw ngunit kasing asul ng dagat ang isang pang tag-araw na langit. The skies were dotted with huge clouds trying to steal the majestic sun’s reign.

Radleigh’s silhoutte completed the scene. His side view frame on the two-seater table told so many stories. Hindi ko alam kung bakit ang makita siyang naroon, nakaupo, nag-aantay sa akin, ay mas nakapagperpekto sa lahat.

Lumapit pa ako lalo at nang naaninag ang kanyang mga mapupungay na mata ay nag-iwas na ako ng tingin. I have lots of things in mind but I just couldn’t say it to him.

Naupo ako sa upuang para sa akin. The barbecued meat without their sticks still looked delectable. Tahimik kaming nagsimulang kumain. Hindi naman ako makatingin sa kanya dahil nararamdaman ko ang titig niya sa akin.

“What do you want to do this afternoon?” he asked.

Sa totoo lang, wala akong plano. I tried to cook and failed. I cleaned the living room, ang resulta ay kita naman kanina. Hindi ko alam kung sino ang nagligpit noong mga kalat ko at ayaw ko nang alamin.

“Maybe take a dip?” sambit ko.

He sighed. Nag-angat ako ng tingin sa kanya. He looked at me like he’s weighing what I’m thinking. Binagsak ko ulit ang mga mata ko sa aking pinggan.

“Aalis ako mamaya.”

Namilog ang mga mata kong napatingin sa kanya. Ibabalik niya na ba ako sa Maynila?

“Manila?”
Umiling siya. “May aasikasuhin lang ako sa Maynila. Babalik din ako agad.”

Nanatili ang mga mata ko sa kanya. Ngayon, siya naman ang ‘di makatingin tila ba may tinatago siya sa akin.

“Why can’t I go back to Manila, too? Why do you want to keep me here, then?” pilit ko.

He sighed and then leveled his stare at me.

“Ethan’s speculations were right. Your father’s debts is beyond what you can imagine.”

Kumunot ang noo ko sa sinabi ni Radleigh. Pagkarating ko sa Maynila ay agad akong binantaan ni Ethan. Sinabi niya sa aking kailangan kong bumalik ng Madrid pero hindi ko ginawa dahil malaki ang problema ng kompanya at ni Daddy. He didn’t specify why he wants me back at Spain but he said something about my father’s debts.

“What do you mean?”
“He’s gambling for years and he’s lost to a syndicate. Malaki ang talo niya at hindi niya mabayaran iyon. Ethan thinks the syndicate wants you to pay for your father’s debts, instead.”

Napakurap-kurap ako. All this time, I’ve thought of so many reasons why I’m held captive here. Why Ethan allowed this to happen. I thought Radleigh’s gone mad. O maaaring baka galit na galit siya sa ginawa kong pagpapahiya sa kanya at sa pamilya niya noong umatras ako sa aming engagement kaya niya ito ginawa. Ngayon, may tamang rason pala siya.

“Is that the reason why Ethan wants me to stay here? At ilang araw, linggo, o buwan akong mananatili rito? Until he finds that syndicate? What?” medyo tumatakas na ang galit at iritasyon sa boses ko.

Radleigh looked at me. One look and I could tell what he meant. Hindi niya na kailangang isatinig ang opinyon niya.

“Calm down. We’ll find a way, Zari. For now, let’s please have a peaceful lunch.”

Nagpupuyos ako ngunit wala akong magawa. So much for thinking about his motives. Now that I’ve learned about the real motive why I’m here, hindi ko na alam kung bakit naiirita na ako.

Tahimik naming tinapos ang pagkain. I couldn’t stop thinking about everything. Kung bakit pa siya nakikialam dito gayong sa pamilya ko ito. Ethan cares because we’re family. Pero ang totoo, problema lamang namin ito ni Daddy. Ako lang dapat ang namomroblema nito!

Tumayo ako nang natapos na akong kumain at iniwan siya roon.

Half of me is grateful that someone cares for my safety. Half of me is mad because it should only be my problem and not anyone’s. Naiirita ako. Pero marahil hindi dahil naaapakan ang pride ko, kundi dahil ayaw kong isipin na hanggang ngayon, nag-aalala parin siya sa akin.

It took me a while before I processed everything he told me. Nawaglit lamang iyon sa isipan ko nang kinatok ako ni Edgar para sa iilan pang mga gamit.

Tinanggap ko iyon. Kasama roon ang mga nirequest kong mga bagay.

Dala ang polaroid ay lumabas na ako ng kwarto. It’s crazy that even in the midst of all of these, I can still find a way to entertain myself.

Pababa na ako nang hinagdanang bato nang natanaw ko galing doon ang dagat. Halos natigil ako sa paglalakad nang nakita si Radleigh na naliligo sa ‘di kalayuan.

Bakit ako titigil o babalik? It’s my plan to come here now and him being here will not change that.

Dumiretso ako sa sun lounger sa ilalim ng mabatong kweba. Nilapag ko ang dalang gamit doon.

I was sure that he sa me from where he was because he stopped swimming. Nagtaas ako ng kilay at tinutok na lamang ang polaroid sa kung saan-saan para makahanap ng magandang angulo.

I thought he’s leaving for Manila. Anong oras kaya ang alis niya?

Tapos na akong maglagay ng sunscreen sa aking balat. I removed my cardigan and buried my feet on the sand. Iyon ang unang naging subject ko sa polaroid.

“May I see what you took?” a baritone interrupted another angle shot.

Napalingon ako sa bandang dalampasigan at nakitang palapit si Radleigh sa sun lounger. His wet slicked back hair made him look more “obscenely handsome”. And watching him walking towards me made me feel weird.

“Uhm… It’s just my feet,” sabi ko at nilapag ang unang larawan sa sun lounger, medyo malayo sa akin para roon niya abutin at h’wag na siyang mapalapit.

Kinuha niya man ang larawan ay naupo naman siya sa tabi ko. Damn it!

Bahagya akong umusog para hindi magtama ang mga hita namin. He’s wet and I’m still dry. I think he’d understand that.

Nanatili ang mga mata ko sa polaroid na ngayon ay hindi ko na alam kung ano ang sunod kong kukuhanan.

Sa gilid ng aking mga mata ay kita kong tinititigan niya ang nakuha ko kanina. It’s angled just right to see the ink on my right heel.

“When did you have this?” he asked unexpectedly.

Napatingin ako sa kanya. Ibinaba ko ang camera.

“Uh, right after Mommy died.”

Tumango siya at tumingin sa buhangin.

“May I see?”

Napalunok ako. Hindi ko malaman kung paano ipapakita sa kanya gayong nasa kaliwa ko siya at ang tattoo ay nasa kanang bahagi ng kanang paa.

“Uhm… Okay…”

Tumayo ako at nilapag ang camera sa lounger. Tumingala siya. Nagtama ang aming mga mata. The way he looks at me made me want to run. Like something in his eyes is too much and I couldn’t properly fathom it.

I took two steps to my left and then hinarap ko ang batuhan para maipakita sa kanya ang aking kanang paa. But instead of looking at my feet, he’s all in my eyes.

“Uhm, it’s here…” sabi ko sabay turo sa aking kanang paa.

He nodded slowly and licked his lower lip. Bumaba ang mga mata niya sa buhangin ngunit umangat ang kamay niya sa aking kaliwang baywang.

My eyes widened when he kind of pulled me closer to him.

“I want to see it properly,” aniya.

Nanuyo ang lalamunan ko at bahagyang inangat ang aking mga paa. The sand from my foot showered his left leg.

“S-Sorry…” sabi ko at nagdadalawang-isip na sa pag-angat.

Hinawakan niya ang aking paa at dahan-dahang nilagay sa sun lounger para makita niya ng maayos. Napahawak ako sa kanyang balikat bilang suporta sa biglaan niyang ginawa.

The extreme heat immediately covered my face. Napatutop ako sa aking bibig habang ang isang kamay ay nanatili sa kanyang balikat.

Gamit ang hintuturo ay hinagod niya iyon ng paulit-ulit. The way he carressed it made my knees slightly weak. Nawala ako sa balanse at napansin niya iyon! He pulled me closer to him making me sit at the small part of the cushion on his lap. Now I’m awkwardly sitting on him! Damn it!

Humugot ako ng malalim na hininga at doon ko lang nalaman na kanina pa pala ako hindi humihinga. His eyes remained on me making me so nervous! Basa ang kanyang hita, pati ang kuston sa inuupuan ko ngunit wala akong panahon para magreklamo. My heart hammered on my chest like crazy.

The north easterly wind blew on my hair. Sinikop ko agad ang buhok ko at tumulong pa siya sa pagsikop noon.

“I was on Tita Lana’s funeral. You weren’t there…” he whispered.

Ngumuso ako. Parang pinipiga ang aking puso. Hindi ko alam kung bakit. I blamed myself for the death of my mother. I didn’t answer her last wish. I didn’t even know that she’s dying until she was rushed to the hospital a week before her death! Hindi ko iyon matanggap. Na inisip ko pa ang sarili ko bago iyong mga kagustuhan niya.

“I was busy studying Architecture,” sabi ko.

Ilang sandali siyang hindi nagsalita. Nanatili lamang kaming ganoon. Pinulot ko ang polaroid camera at wala sa sariling kinuhanan ang nakahantad kong binti hanggang paa. Lumabas ang larawan at kinuha ko iyon. I waited for the blank piece to show some colors.

“Did you want me to bother you while you were studying abroad?” he whispered on my ear.

Kung hindi pa ako pinapatay ng kalabog kanina, ngayon iyon na ang nangyayari. My heart hurt like it’s dying. I couldn’t properly breathe as I find the right words to deny what he just asked!

Hindi niya nakalimutan ang malabo kong sumbat kanina! He even knew what I meant! Damn it! I can’t believe it! I’m not sure if he’s just that genius or what!

“No. I left so our paths won’t cross again.”

Damn it, Zariyah!

“That’s what I thought but…” his hand on my waist slightly snaked until my stomach.

Napalunok ako.

“You made me so confused today.”

I calmed myself through noticing the few things with my second picture. Adjacent to my legs is half of his right thigh covered with his wet shorts. And a bit of his knee. Kung titingnan mo iyong mabuti, malalaman na kandong niya nga ako.

“I have memorized your speech to me. I played it over and over in my mind just to remind myself. Ngayon, sinasabi mong…” he sighed and then leaned closer to me.

Kinagat ko ang pang ibabang labi ko at nanatiling abala sa camera. Hinawi niya iyon para mawala ang atensyon ko roon.

“Zari, did you really want me to leave you alone?” his voice was so soft and heartbreaking.
“I did…” Now this isn’t a lie. It’s true. I want him to leave me alone when I left.

He sighed heavily. His wet chest touched my arm. His other hand rested on my legs and tried to pull them closer to him.

Inangat ko muli ang polaroid camera and clicked it. The third picture will be about his evenly muscled arm crossing both my legs.

“I guess it’s the right decision. It’s comforting to know that not all my decision is a failure. If I stayed and married you, you wouldn’t meet your girlfriend. Siguro nagkamali lang ako nitong nakaraan. I should’ve left you alone.”
“Ah…” he whispered so close on my ear that his breath tickled me.
“Agatha’s family is my Dad’s business partner for a new business venture.”

Ngumuso ako at bahagyang natawa sa kalooblooban. I may be selfish but I don’t easily forget other people… most especially… him.

“Are you telling me that you’re marrying her for business? A Riego doesn’t marry for business.”

Hindi siya nagsalita. Baka natamaan. O baka bukod sa business partner iyon, mahal niya nga si Agatha. Parehong nakakainis na dahilan. Pero walang mas nakakainis pa sa pangalawang dahilan.

“Did you know that when you were bound to marry me?”

Ngayon. Ako naman ang hindi makapagsalita.

I played with the buttons of the polaroid camera. I stretched my arm far enough so my face would fit. I clicked it once at ilang saglit ay iniluwa na nito ang isa pang picture.

I waved it in the air and when it started to have some color, nakita kong kalahati ng mukha ko ang naroon at sa gilid ng aking mukha ay si Radleigh na nakatingin sa akin. His perfectly angled nose made him look so hot.

Nilapag ko sa sun lounger ang huling picture at nilingon si Radleigh na ngayon ay nakatutok lamang sa akin, mapupungay ang mga mata.

“I want to take a dip now,” sabi ko. Takot na mapag-usapan ang nakaraan.

He snaked his left arm more on my stomach. His palm covered it. I feel like he wants me to stay like that. On him.

“What does this mean?” he asked.

Kahit na hindi niya tinukoy ay alam ko ang ibig niyang sabihin.

“Fall seven times. Stand up eight.”

He groaned and rested his nose on my hair. Then down to my neck. Nanghihina ako. Alam kong mali ito. Alam kong dapat kong pigilan pero masyado akong nanghina.

Alam kong mapapaso ako kapag hinayaan kong ganito pero parang wala lang iyon sa akin. Tila ba hindi ko na inaalintana kung mapaso man ako… matupok man… at maging abo… dahil sa apoy na kumakain sa akin.

Nanikip ang dibdib ko.

“Go and swim for a while. I’ll wait for you here before I leave,” bulong niya.”

Iyon nga ang ginawa ko. Kahit na gusto ko ring manatili na lamang doon. Kahit na nahirapan akong tumayo. Kahit na hirap akong ituloy ang binabalak ko.

“Umalis pala si Ser Radleigh, Ma’am? Nag-away daw kayo sabi ni Nikanor?” panimula ni Belinda nang dinalhan ko siya ng mainit na tsokolate sa kanyang kwarto.

Tiningnan ko siya. She looked funny when her curly hair is not properly combed and half of her body is covered with white sheets. Pero may mas nakakatawa pa. Ang katotohanang pinag-uusapan talaga kami ng mga ito kapag may oras sila. Well, it’s only natural. They’re not robots.

Pagkatapos kong maligo ng mga three minutes sa dagat ay umahon na ako. Sabay kaming umakyat ni Radleigh sa mansyon. I was in the shower when the chopper left. At ngayon pinili kong ubusin ang natitirang oras ng hapon rito kay Belinda.

“Ang hirap naman kasing pakisamahan ni Radleigh!” I exclaimed.

Lumapit ako sa bintana at tiningnan galing doon ang mansyon. Kita ang mga solar panels na siyang gamit para makakuha ng enerhiya ang buong isla.

“Pinagluto ko nga ng pancake, namimintas pa. He wouldn’t consider faults. He won’t give me a chance kapag nagkamali,” sabi ko at naisip iyong paglilinis ko kanina.

Nagkamali lang ako, pinapatigil na agad ako. He won’t give me a chance to redeem myself.

“Nakakabilib nga siya Ma’am, hindi ba? Mayaman pero laki parin sa pagtatrabaho at pagsisikap. Kaya siguro ganoon din ang gusto niya. Gusto niya ring matuto ka ng mga gawaing ganoon.”

Napalingon ako kay Belinda. Now, I’m kind of pissed.

“Marunong nga ako! Hindi perpekto pero sinusubukan ko naman. Kung gusto niya ng perpekto, e ‘di maghanap siya ng ibang babae na perpekto sa gawaing bahay!”

Umirap ako. Gusto ko sanang pag-usapan ang tungkol sa problema ni Daddy pero umasim ang pakiramdam ko sa usapan namin ni Belinda ngayon.

Humalakhak si Belinda. Humalukipkip ako at naglakad patungo sa isang maliit na stool. Sumimsim siya sa mainit na tsokolateng nilapag ko sa side table.

“Nagbilin nga pala siya, Ma’am. Na ipagluto ka raw nina Roman mamayang hapunan.”

So… he won’t be back tonight. Parang habang tumatagal ako rito kay Belinda, mas lalo akong nababadtrip.

Tinapos ko ang pagbisita ko at bumalik na lamang sa mansyon. Kahit na sinabi nI Belinda na ipagluluto ako nina Roman, nagsikap parin akong magluto ng sariling pagkain para sa aking hapunan.

I was eating dinner when they gave me my share of food. Gaya ng inutos ni Radleigh sa kanila. Pagkatapos kong kumain ay nanood na lamang ako ng TV.

It started raining outside. Ayon sa balita ay may bagyo pero hindi naman matatamaan ang isla. Siguro ay kasama ang ulan na ito sa bagyong iyon.

I watched a movie until ten o’clock. Inantok na ako nang nag alas diez kaya natulog na ako sa aking kwarto.

The rain poured. Kaya medyo matagal akong nakatulog. Akala ko’y purong ulan lamang iyon ngunit nagising ako sa madaling araw dahil sa kulog.

At first, I didn’t move. Iniisip kong wala rin naman akong mapupuntahan ngayon. Well, unless there’s a guard outside!

Isang napakatagal na kidlat ang nakita ko at agad akong pumikit. Sinundan ng napakalakas na kulog ay napabangon na ako.

Without thinking twice, I went out of my room to see if there’s a guard. Wala ni isa akong nakita sa pasilyo.

I guess I am left with no choice. Thinking about his room made me a bit comfortable. Kahit na wala siya roon. Kahit na wala rin akong kasama. Kahit na nasa Maynila rin naman siya.

Isang kulog muli ang narinig ko at agad ko nang tinakbo ang distansya ng pintuan sa aking kwarto patungo sa kanya. Luckily, it’s not locked.

I opened the door. Nadatnan ko agad ang dilim ng kwarto niya dahilan ng pagkapa ko sa switch para mabuksan ang ilaw. Panicking, I turned the switch on and the lights immediately went to life.

Tatakbo na sana ako sa kama nang bigla kong nakita si Radleigh malapit sa banyo, hubo’t hubad. Oh God, Zari! Were you that hot that now you’re hallucinating in the middle of the night!

And fuck it, even in my dreams, I shamelessly looked at his size in between his thighs. It’s overwhelming size made me gasp! And he’s not even erect at that!

Natutop ko ang bibig ko at agad nakaramdam ng matindig init sa mukha.

“Are you okay?” he suddenly moved to get a towel.

What? Don’t tell me that he’s real! He can’t be! He’s in Manila!

Inangat ko ang mga mata ko sa kanyang mukha. His hand moved to cover his thighs with the towel. Nang natapos ay naglakad na siya palapit sa akin. Doon ko napagtanto na totoo siya… na hindi ako nananaginip… o nag iilusyon!

It’s him! It was his! And damn it… my throat went dry.

“S-Sorry!” sabi ko at tinalikuran siya, parang mahihimatay na.

Bago ko pa mapihit ang door handle ay hinawakan niya na ako sa braso.

“You can sleep here…” he said calmly.

Like I didn’t just watch him go full naked! Is he seriously that confident!?

“No… No… I thought you’re in Manila! Sa kwarto na lang ako!” sabi ko nang ‘di siya hinaharap.
“Kumukulog at kumikidlat, Zari. Dito ka na matulog-”
“I said, I’m fine, Radleigh!” ngayon ay desperada ko nang tinaas ang boses ko.

I don’t think I can sleep peacefully now after that!

“Come on…”

He pulled me a bit. Ang isang kamay niya’y nasa ibabaw ng pintuan para hindi ko mabuksan. Hinarap niya ako at bahagyang yumuko.

I’ve seen his strong and broad chest earlier but it’s different when I look at it in this angle and in this close. I feel like it’s a huge wall. Na kung gustuhin niya ay madadaganan ako niyan at ‘di na makahinga. I feel so soft and fragile looking at his body like this.

“If you sleep in your room, I’m going to sleep there, too. It will be just the same.”

Kumidlat dahilan kung bakit pumikit ako ng mariin. He clicked the door’s lock while my eyes were shut.

“Good girl,” he whispered and stayed closer to me.

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